Tomorrow I will be in Santiago, the capital of Galicia and its iconic Cathedral, the burial place of the relics of James the Apostle, discovered in the 9th century...
There is no satisfaction, because essence is eternal and could repeat similar habitual behavior endlessly. However, she has awareness and stronger I AM to harness myself alter the past by conscious attention all the way to enlightenment and freedom of the will.
Human fear change and death, but unconscious-sensation behind reincarnation is an endless source of creation and by ignoring her we lose immortality.
Until sensation falls and reflects, the unconscious-self is dreaming personality, but to block natural flow by education creates a social beast not an artist, creative potential resides within darkness, but weakness of self-awareness opposes it.
Regardless of what you seem to be at present, how weak is your awareness or what your body looks like, potentiality of evolution sooner or later awakens to raise over unconscious creation and confer true identity.