Another sunny morning, another black coffee and 21 km a day, body aches, muscles tense, and a couple of blisters on my legs, but deep inside I AM happy.
I mostly travel alone and live alone, prefer my own thought to mundane reality. Each time I find myself with people occupied by monotonous world feel depressed and boring. Everything changes as I retreat into my inner world and the self is talking to me.
At first awareness polarizes and after reflects, male & female, light & darkness symbolize north & south poles of a single awareness. But how the third eye of a spiritual body and two eyes of reincarnation connect and harmonize?
Awareness could not be by itself, it is always awareness of something, while enlightenment is essence awareness, falling sensation reincarnates unconsciously.
I often blame others for giving me bad energy, but never blame anyone for your experiences, no one could influence strong awareness against the will, power of outgoing force equals weakness of receptive.