Cold and fresh air makes tracking comfortable, but I can’t stop thinking about last night’s dream, as if priest was wedding us on a right shore of river Ganges in Varanasi, I AM & Male Spirit.
So, who AM I and who is myself?
Maybe what I call myself is my causal body "building the house from inside out without the door to come out" referring to a material shell. Maybe he has no way out and annihilates when I AM strong enough to raise sensation?
There is no male without female, the self seems different and independent from I AM until desires his own awareness in a form of unconscious sensation and reincarnates. However, evolution of individual consciousness finds unconscious source of reflection and annihilate male/female polarity by a single will.
Maybe wedding symbolizes original awareness harnessing my own light of consciousness. I AM female he is male, but there is no spiritual marriage until he is stronger than me.
Problem of humanity is in inability to control our own essence, that is why we are born and die until individual magnetic field is strong enough to realize its own eternity and become a cosmic citizen.